03.29.06
Strength. Peace. Grace.
Those are three words that I've been hearing a lot of lately. And much to my surprise, they are being said about me. It's often said that hard times bring out the best and the worst in people - and I guess that's true. While I appreciate the affirmations from everyone, I just think I need to let everyone know that my strength, peace and grace are not of my own accord. While I should be in one of the darkest times in my life, I just don't feel that I am. It's definitely a trial, and definitely uncomfortable, but I'm still in a much more stable place than I have been at other times in my life. And all credit for where I am and how I am handling this goes to my faith and relationship with the Big Guy above.
Seriously. I am not carrying this burden on my own. He was there with me when it all happened and He has never left. I have felt a comfort and peace I cannot explain. He has provided for me in every way through my parents, through friends, and even through friends of friends. Everything is falling into place more easily than I ever thought possible. There are still a few outstanding issues - and I have complete faith that those will be handled in time as well. That's the biggest frustration is that it's not happening on MY schedule anymore. I've had to relinquish control - a BIG thing for me. But, as I said, everything is falling into place.
I'm also of the belief that everything happens for a reason - I am a believer in the master plan. And in some way, God is going to use this time in my life to bring glory to Him. I don't get it, I don't understand it, but I believe it's true. So I just have to sit and wait patiently - all will be revealed in time...
In the mean time, I get to start over. I essentially have the cleanest slate I will ever have in my life. I'm able to keep the good in my life (family, friends, job, music, etc.) and shake up the things that were holding me back from goals I might not have even realized I had. So here's to new beginnings and recognizing new opportunities... I will continue to look for the multiple blessings that will pour forth from this time...
I would apologize for this being to "preachy", but I'm not. This is what I believe and this is what's getting me through. And I thought you all should know...
Those are three words that I've been hearing a lot of lately. And much to my surprise, they are being said about me. It's often said that hard times bring out the best and the worst in people - and I guess that's true. While I appreciate the affirmations from everyone, I just think I need to let everyone know that my strength, peace and grace are not of my own accord. While I should be in one of the darkest times in my life, I just don't feel that I am. It's definitely a trial, and definitely uncomfortable, but I'm still in a much more stable place than I have been at other times in my life. And all credit for where I am and how I am handling this goes to my faith and relationship with the Big Guy above.
Seriously. I am not carrying this burden on my own. He was there with me when it all happened and He has never left. I have felt a comfort and peace I cannot explain. He has provided for me in every way through my parents, through friends, and even through friends of friends. Everything is falling into place more easily than I ever thought possible. There are still a few outstanding issues - and I have complete faith that those will be handled in time as well. That's the biggest frustration is that it's not happening on MY schedule anymore. I've had to relinquish control - a BIG thing for me. But, as I said, everything is falling into place.
I'm also of the belief that everything happens for a reason - I am a believer in the master plan. And in some way, God is going to use this time in my life to bring glory to Him. I don't get it, I don't understand it, but I believe it's true. So I just have to sit and wait patiently - all will be revealed in time...
In the mean time, I get to start over. I essentially have the cleanest slate I will ever have in my life. I'm able to keep the good in my life (family, friends, job, music, etc.) and shake up the things that were holding me back from goals I might not have even realized I had. So here's to new beginnings and recognizing new opportunities... I will continue to look for the multiple blessings that will pour forth from this time...
I would apologize for this being to "preachy", but I'm not. This is what I believe and this is what's getting me through. And I thought you all should know...
posted by Renee at 8:01 AM
4 Comments:
Rock on. Love you.
You just keep showing how great of a person you are!!
I don't know what to say, except that I love your guts.
Renee: you amaze me more and more everyday. I love you.
April
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